[Atem's body language shifts. He leans forward, resting his elbows on his knees, his hands folded in front of his mouth and pressed to his lips. It's pensive. He's thinking.
Is he taking others' problems onto himself, making them his instead...? Is he neglecting to take care of himself? Both of those things together would be bad. (But...) Not taking care of yourself in a place like this has consequences. That path ends in La Forteresse.
(But...)
You can't meet other people's victory conditions for them. Trying doesn't work. Trying just keeps him from getting what he wants. That...makes sense. He wants to protect Riley from Aunamee, but approaching him has only drawn attention to Atem. Protecting her directly...Mukuro might be better suited to that. And the other monsters seem to have a good read on him already. He might not need to pursue that one quite so closely.
Is his project to become a monster that's feared, whose people are protected by his name alone, who has the advantage because he's causing suffering, taking others' problems and making them his...?
Maybe. It might be. But he doesn't want to give that up. It could be his best chance, at looking out for everyone, all at once...making sure he gets the setting bonuses, the field advantage, and making sure everybody knows what will happen if one of his people is hurt.
And...there's what's coming in October. He's worried about that.
There's everything Ryou has been through.
And there's Yugi.]
...I haven't been prioritizing myself.
I've been looking for a way out, with Yugi. For Yugi. I know it's unlikely that I'd find a way out in four months when others have been working for years, but I thought I knew how to look, in a way other people might not have thought of.
I know rest is important, but...trying everything that could get Yugi out while there was still time...that mattered more.
Now that that's failed, what's left is to keep him from starving himself until he loses control. I'll make his first feeding as easy as I can, but it's still going to hurt him. I don't see a way around that...but, that's a problem I'll make my own, gladly. Dealing with that is more important than...anything I want.
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Date: 2021-10-12 02:49 am (UTC)Is he taking others' problems onto himself, making them his instead...? Is he neglecting to take care of himself? Both of those things together would be bad. (But...) Not taking care of yourself in a place like this has consequences. That path ends in La Forteresse.
(But...)
You can't meet other people's victory conditions for them. Trying doesn't work. Trying just keeps him from getting what he wants. That...makes sense. He wants to protect Riley from Aunamee, but approaching him has only drawn attention to Atem. Protecting her directly...Mukuro might be better suited to that. And the other monsters seem to have a good read on him already. He might not need to pursue that one quite so closely.
Is his project to become a monster that's feared, whose people are protected by his name alone, who has the advantage because he's causing suffering, taking others' problems and making them his...?
Maybe. It might be. But he doesn't want to give that up. It could be his best chance, at looking out for everyone, all at once...making sure he gets the setting bonuses, the field advantage, and making sure everybody knows what will happen if one of his people is hurt.
And...there's what's coming in October. He's worried about that.
There's everything Ryou has been through.
And there's Yugi.]
...I haven't been prioritizing myself.
I've been looking for a way out, with Yugi. For Yugi. I know it's unlikely that I'd find a way out in four months when others have been working for years, but I thought I knew how to look, in a way other people might not have thought of.
I know rest is important, but...trying everything that could get Yugi out while there was still time...that mattered more.
Now that that's failed, what's left is to keep him from starving himself until he loses control. I'll make his first feeding as easy as I can, but it's still going to hurt him. I don't see a way around that...but, that's a problem I'll make my own, gladly. Dealing with that is more important than...anything I want.