[Ryou shakes their head slowly, letting out a breathy chuckle.]
H-haha...I don't try hard enough. If I did, then maybe...things would be different.
[He doesn't want to let the Ring-Spirit feel this. He hates that the Ring-Spirit insists on it, because at the end of the day, Ryou won't deny him long. He despises possessing others on a normal day, and only does it with consent. His spirit isn't consenting to it if he doesn't want his emotions taken though.
And that all aside...he's expressing how much he appreciates Ryou for being exactly who he is. Something that, until recently, Ryou thought Atem appreciated him for. He thought Atem saw him...but all he really saw was the ugly part that Ryou couldn't control. The part that Ryou had been blind to see until now.
Nonetheless...the Ring-Spirit wants that pain. So, Ryou releases his pain-sharing, feeding it all back slowly, gradually, until they're both stuck feeling fear, anxiety, and despair.]
I wish you could stop caring about me so much as you do. Your life would be far easier...and maybe you didn't make me happy, but you found a life here...one that isn't just about vengeance, or pain.
How could you want to feel this? I wouldn't. No one would...
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Date: 2022-12-14 11:48 am (UTC)H-haha...I don't try hard enough. If I did, then maybe...things would be different.
[He doesn't want to let the Ring-Spirit feel this. He hates that the Ring-Spirit insists on it, because at the end of the day, Ryou won't deny him long. He despises possessing others on a normal day, and only does it with consent. His spirit isn't consenting to it if he doesn't want his emotions taken though.
And that all aside...he's expressing how much he appreciates Ryou for being exactly who he is. Something that, until recently, Ryou thought Atem appreciated him for. He thought Atem saw him...but all he really saw was the ugly part that Ryou couldn't control. The part that Ryou had been blind to see until now.
Nonetheless...the Ring-Spirit wants that pain. So, Ryou releases his pain-sharing, feeding it all back slowly, gradually, until they're both stuck feeling fear, anxiety, and despair.]
I wish you could stop caring about me so much as you do. Your life would be far easier...and maybe you didn't make me happy, but you found a life here...one that isn't just about vengeance, or pain.
How could you want to feel this? I wouldn't. No one would...