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cw; self deprecation like damn boi. let the ps5 have his emotions back.
Date: 2022-12-14 05:16 am (UTC)It doesn't matter, this is--it's proof. It's proof that the only good thing I can do is take people's hurt and lock it away. And when I'm around people--even you--something about me makes them hurt. S-so, I...I'm made this way.
[He squeezes their eyes shut, almost painfully, and curls up on the ground, hands over his head. Metallic claws prick against their scalp, because Ryou's not used to such rigid claws, but he can't help it.]
If I give it back...it's going to have mine too...
[cw: mention of suicide]
Date: 2022-12-14 06:09 am (UTC)He doesn't mind the way Ryou scrunches their body up or that he's nicking their scalp - the Ring-Spirit still does it himself if he gets too distracted, his talons are awkward, it's not a big deal - he just wishes he could do something, anything, that actually helped.
Ha. Another case of him and Ryou displaying the same problem traits, he supposes. After all, it was his own refusal to back down that had forced Ryou's hand because he wouldn't back down, which meant Ryou shattered his soul, which has proceeded to be the precise cause of their current predicament and... it's all so funny, hilarious even, in a miserable sort of way.
The Ring-Spirit gives a quiet, resigned sigh. ]
It's ok. I already told you, if you could, to put all of it on me. I want to help you, even if it hurts.
[ . . . ]
...You're one of the only things I care about. The only things that make existence worth anything to me.
I know you don't believe me, but you're one of the only good things, good people, I've ever come across. You try so hard... hell, even now, despite how low you already feel, you're trying to help me of all creatures.
I'm poisonous by my very nature... but... I want to help you... please let me try.
cw self-hate all over
Date: 2022-12-14 11:48 am (UTC)H-haha...I don't try hard enough. If I did, then maybe...things would be different.
[He doesn't want to let the Ring-Spirit feel this. He hates that the Ring-Spirit insists on it, because at the end of the day, Ryou won't deny him long. He despises possessing others on a normal day, and only does it with consent. His spirit isn't consenting to it if he doesn't want his emotions taken though.
And that all aside...he's expressing how much he appreciates Ryou for being exactly who he is. Something that, until recently, Ryou thought Atem appreciated him for. He thought Atem saw him...but all he really saw was the ugly part that Ryou couldn't control. The part that Ryou had been blind to see until now.
Nonetheless...the Ring-Spirit wants that pain. So, Ryou releases his pain-sharing, feeding it all back slowly, gradually, until they're both stuck feeling fear, anxiety, and despair.]
I wish you could stop caring about me so much as you do. Your life would be far easier...and maybe you didn't make me happy, but you found a life here...one that isn't just about vengeance, or pain.
How could you want to feel this? I wouldn't. No one would...
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Date: 2022-12-14 01:27 pm (UTC)He shudders, pulling his wings closer around them, and lets out a shaky, breathy laugh of his own. ]
H-hahah... I only found that life because of you. Before you said it, before I realized you were right, that you and I, that we're family - I'd fully intended to go right back to destroying everything as soon as we got home. That's why I finally tried to tell you then, to not let me go home... I finally wanted to not hurt you more than I wanted to hurt everyone else. Finally realized it.
[ The Ring-Spirit doesn't fight to open their eyes, but he does try to smile weakly. ]
This? It's... I know how this feels. It's nothing new. Mine's usually angrier, that's all.
[ He swallows, struggling to fight through their shared misery. ]
I know these feelings, I've felt it all before, for years - thousands of them. And if I can't stop you from feeling it, at least I can ensure you're not alone with it.
sometime in december
Date: 2022-12-16 01:01 am (UTC)Inside is a wrapped rectangular box. Inside the box is a book on how to predict the weather, for Rystrologists. It's full of actually practical and truthful tips, but dressed up in fancy pants arcane terminology.
A note with the box says: ]
From Saint-Germain.
[ seasons greasons! ]
nattensfest 2022 [secret santa!]
Date: 2022-12-25 12:31 am (UTC)Christmas Gift
Date: 2022-12-25 01:10 am (UTC)Action, Dyster wandering post-event. icons are white fur but he's a gray shade boi
Date: 2023-02-07 09:11 am (UTC)He hasn't gone home yet. All this time, he's been wandering Dyster, in one form or another. Today, he's shapeshifted into a wolf that is not his overpowered tier 2 wolf form. Rather, it looks surprisingly similar to his werewolf travel form, and doesn't give off the same oppressive, angered aura as the tier 2 buff.
The ruff of fur that cascades down his neck and shoulders and which also creates a fringe of bangs that would be unmistakable to anyone who knows him...well, it's a pretty dead giveaway. Even with the silvery gray cloak he's wearing.
It's for the better, since he's basically walking aimlessly, head down, paws gently moving along the dark pathways between living spaces within Dyster.
He doesn't even realize...that he's walking towards a familiar face. His head's down, and he doesn't have werewolf senses despite his looks.
Why would he be looking for the Ring-Spirit at this point anyway? Ryou's out for a walk...but he's been avoiding people like the plague for days, and is only out stretching his legs because he can't very well stare into the courtyard pond and lose himself in the lilies forever, right?]
sorry for the delay on my end asdsa... also upcoming-[cw: mouth/teeth body horror]
Date: 2023-02-10 03:23 am (UTC)Hey.
[ Should Ryou look up, the Ring-Spirit looks normal. ]
...You feenin' any begger yen?
[ Ok scratch that, there is clearly something wrong with his tongue. The Ring-Spirit pulls a face as he realizes how he sounds. ]
...Fug, I gueth I neen do gen uth'oo nese...
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Date: 2023-02-10 07:52 am (UTC)--oh.]
Ah, Spirit, I...
...are you alright?
[Listen. He knows he was asked a question first, but it's not half as important as needing to know why the Ring-Spirit's talking like that.]
and now [cw: mouth/teeth body horror]
Date: 2023-02-10 08:26 am (UTC)Yeah, i'th buth -
[ The Ring-Spirit cuts himself off with a groan, finally giving up. He rolls his eyes, then sticks out his tongue and points at it by way of explanation.
Along the edge of his tongue, the Ring-Spirit once had avian ridges, much like the creepy "teeth" ducks and geese have on their tongues; those are gone now. Instead, he sports a new row of actual, human teeth. On his tongue.
They're proving an obstacle to speech. ...He'll adjust.
Also, Ryou may notice that the Ring-Spirit's right hand, which he's been wrapping with athletic tape since the Fourth marked a bunch of them, is now unwrapped - and free of the hieratic four tattoo that Atem may or may not have mentioned (or maybe even Ryou'd asked about the tape previously; the Ring-Spirit certainly would have explained the unwanted tattoo if he'd asked). ]
haha WOW THAT'S SURE SOMETHING RING MAN
Date: 2023-02-10 09:05 am (UTC)But when the Ring-Spirit reveals his tongue-teeth, all else is forgotten. Ryou leans in closer, eyes widening.]
Oh...that's...
[Creepy? Weird? Inconvenient?]
...cool.
[This is Ryou Bakura. This is his brand. And for now, the teeth take precedent over the freshly-unbandaged hand.]
if I hadn't wanted the demon eyes more he'd have gotten these ages ago,
Date: 2023-02-10 09:21 am (UTC)He lets Ryou take a good long look, but he does need to use his tongue if he's going to talk at all, so eventually the "show" part ends for the "tell" follow-up. ]
I' mabes dalging harder, bud I'r ged uth'oo ib.
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Date: 2023-02-11 08:52 am (UTC)[Ryou's lip curls upward, revealing his pointed teeth. Months. It had taken around a month to talk around them without sounding off, but he had the time to learn when he was keeping to himself and sticking to the streets.
It seems like such a long time ago, though...since he'd had the trouble..]
Also my fog form. I could speak in it, but it took practice to talk around the different shapes. I wish I had advice...but overenunciating helped with the teeth, I suppose.
[This is actually helping him loosen up. Whenever it's not his problems, things are easier when he's trying to fix them.]
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Date: 2023-02-12 09:14 am (UTC)Nagth 'enth. I'b gonna dalg bore - nore - care-hu-ny.
[ Ugh, even when he tries to enunciate real slow, the sounds come out wrong. He gives an impatient huff. Well, whatever. Beats having a four stuck on him. He sighs, resigned to it, brushing his feather-hair back with one hand and looks at Ryou for a moment. He did notice Ryou relax when they stopped focusing on him, so maybe... maybe, the Ring-Spirit thinks, he shouldn't redirect the conversation. ]
'hragith, dath wha' I neen.
[ ...This would be easier if...
The Ring-Spirit snaps his fingers abruptly, having an idea. ]
Con ober do by b'nafe? I can uth a pag dere an' buth ri' thid 'own. Eathear for bofa uth.
[ As he "speaks", he first gestures back towards the way he came and then mimes writing, hoping to clarify the mess that are the sounds coming from his mouth. ]
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Date: 2023-02-13 05:59 am (UTC)There's a difference between talking past a jacked-up nose, and having the main part of your speaking-bits be nearly unusable. So, when the Ring-Spirit offers(? Ryou is pretty sure he is anyway) Ryou an invitation to his Dyster-home, Ryou simply nods and offers him to lead the way.]
Sure? I...probably shouldn't be walking around so much right now anyway, just in case.
[In case he wears himself out--he'd just revived recently--or in case he finds someone ready to lay him out for being responsible for the mid-month event.
Either or.]
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Date: 2023-02-14 12:49 am (UTC)Perhaps(?) unsurprisingly, the structure the Ring-Spirit leads him to looks like a miniature ancient Egyptian temple - albeit one that's half sunk into the ground. The entryway is imposing, as tall as a two-story house... once past the threshold, the building turns into a long walled-in courtyard lined by thick columns. The courtyard is a good twenty feet long, on a descending incline so steep that the middle walkway is simply stairs; at the foot of which lies a large arch opening into an underground chamber. That chamber proves to be fairly dark, being dimly lit only by a pair of torches, one on either side of a small door opposite the open arch. This room serves no clear purpose, being sizable enough but containing nothing besides a double-row of columns and the aforementioned torches. Through the small door...
...is a windowless but nonetheless well lit modern Japanese-style apartment. There's even a place to remove and stash your shoes by the door.
The Ring-Spirit, barefoot as he always these days, simply ignores that, walking right past it; but it's there.
He disappears into what appears to be a small bedroom off to one side, and returns with the notepad he mentioned, quickly scribbling out:
I'd offer snack but haven't stocked up yet
There is a small kitchen along the back wall, but if his note is to be believed, the fridge and cabinets are currently empty.
The Ring-Spirit settles by the kotatsu in the middle of the living area, placing the pad down on the table, and waits for Ryou to join him.
The apartment section of this place isn't fully on display as Ryou enters, there being a few closed doors; but it sure looks like it's not even as big as Ryou's own apartment had been. ]
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Date: 2023-02-21 08:59 am (UTC)When the temple chamber gives away to a more modern Japanese-style living arrangement though...Ryou can't help but blink in confusion. He's overcome with a strange feeling--homesickness? Even now?--as he stands at the entryway for a few seconds longer.
He's somewhat lost in the old familiarity of a place like this, to the point that the Ring-Spirit communicating with the notepad doesn't initially hit home.
After a few long, possibly worrying moments, the shade shakes his head to clear it, then answers back:]
N-no, it's...it's alright, I'm not that hungry.
[Probably odd for Ryou, but...well, the situation is what it is. He walks tiredly to the table, moving as if he's on autopilot and making himself comfortable afterward. If it's a heated kotatsu then...by god, Ryou really will feel all the more homesick.]
crying because this is so old, so sorry...
Date: 2023-02-23 07:55 am (UTC)Maybe...it would be better, if you destroyed everything.
[It's a whisper that nearly dies on their tongue, but Ryou forces it out anyway.]
When we go home, if we ever do...I can't have the same things here. I'll go back, and be no one's best friend.
[Ryou hadn't been upset about that before, but he finds himself feeling particularly hurt about it now, about knowing that his friends didn't want to know his hopes and dreams, like he had listened to theirs. Knowing that his father only reached out now that there wasn't a cursed artifact creating distance between them, but that it would never be the same.
And worst of all, he'd leave part of his heart here, because even if they fought, even if it was over...Atem mattered to him so much that Ryou was sure his heart wouldn't be able to handle such a separation.]
I'm tired, Spirit. I'm tired of...everything.
1/2
Date: 2023-02-27 05:29 am (UTC)So he simply sighs heavily, and hugs their (his?) wings closer around them. ]
...I know.
I know.
[ It's quiet, sad; weary with understanding, and with acceptance. While he still doesn't intend to change his mind about the apocalypse again... he knows where Ryou's coming from, emotionally; and he agrees with him, philosophically.
The Ring-Spirit has no hope to offer, but he is here. Being here might be all he can do, but by fucking hell he's a-gonna. No one can tear him away from Ryou as long as he needs company. And so he sits there for a while in silence. ]
2/2 [cw: mention of cannibalism and vore]
Date: 2023-02-27 05:38 am (UTC)But also that they don't have to, so long as the Ring-Spirit can bear to move; he tests this, stretching a little one way, then a little more another - yeah, given a tad more time, he'll be able to get them there. After, they can collapse again. ]
I could grab us someone from Dyster to eat. That's no effort.
[ What with the Dyster-ites being so... into the idea. Normally that creeps the Ring-Spirit out, but he has to admit it's convenient in certain circumstances. ]
this thread sure is goin places lol
Date: 2023-02-27 08:23 am (UTC)Hard to say. One thing's for certain though--Ryou is marginally less inebriated right now, and the hunger is really starting to creep up on him more. Hence, when the Ring-Spirit mentions Dyster and the neverending supply of food, Ryou can't help but swallow, hard.
Well, that had been the whole point of calling his partner to him anyway, hadn't it?
...Oh, okay, maybe not the whole point, but at least some of it.]
That...yes. That's fine.
[At least it's a step in a semi-positive direction. Ryou's still pretty upset, but...focusing on something else should help.]
I'll...I'll have to stop possessing you when we find someone.
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Date: 2023-02-27 11:07 pm (UTC)He slides the pad forward, looking away uncomfortably.
sorry I wasn't there ]
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Date: 2023-02-27 11:43 pm (UTC)When Ryou speaks, the Ring-Spirit hums in response. ]
Mn... alright. You just can step back in when you're done, if you still want to ride.
[ No need to ask again! ]
After that... well, we can decide then. But I do have a room in Dyster - it's underground, dark and quiet - if you want, we can hole up there for however long; I don't mind.
[ The Ring-Spirit gets them up slowly, stretching out stiff muscles as he goes. Once up, he feels for the Dyster key in his pocket and takes a look around; did he land them on a rooftop with a door somewhere? They need a door for the key to work. ]
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Date: 2023-02-28 08:44 am (UTC)Yeah...there's one up here. Honestly a good thing, because Ryou's not sure if they're ready for another flight so soon after a feelings share. At least, he isn't...]
Are you hungry? I can't tell, I can only feel mine.
[Unless he is feeling the Ring-Spirit's hunger as well and just can't parse the difference, but it's hard to tell, if that's the case.]